banane?

Right now, i feel like i'm pretty helpless... it seems like i am always wrong, i can't seem to get the hang of things at all. Every time i feel like i finally got the hang of something, something comes right back to slap me cold on the face. It is beyond annoying, it feels incredibly depressing, like you are struggling alone on a vast ocean. Is this all i am? Is this all i will be? It is so harsh to live life without illusions, especially about myself.